After the crash, lots on my mind.
So my GF and I pretty much immediately agreed that I would sell the 919 due to my latest wreck. It would make not only her but the rest of my family very happy. She knows I love to ride, but she doesn't know I have a LOT to learn, and unfortunately I ALWAYS learn the hard way. Hence 2 lay downs in 2 months. I was just being flat out stupid the second time. Now that it's come time to look into selling the bike, I've hit a snag. Besides realizing selling it would keep me safer, I realized I'd have to find out the pay-off amount for the loan I took from the bank and find someone willing to pay that amount for the bike. Probably not going to happen ($5000 loan in Oct. and pay $120/mo). She's making the payments as she wanted to get me a bike for my last b-day. So if I can't flat out sell it, obviously I don't want it sitting idle in our parking garage collecting dust. Don't need a $120/mo dust collector.
Tonight I kind of gave her the ultimatum that if we can't sell the bike, when I'm better, I'm riding again. In my mind it made great sense since I'm not afraid to get back on. In her mind, if I get back on, she leaves me. So I'm in a tough spot. I write this because all this is on my mind and can't sleep. I got out of bed and knowing she woke up, I kissed her and apologized for the way I gave her an ultimatum about me riding again. I also told her I can't sleep because I've got way too much on my mind about the bike situation and want to talk to her about a solution where we both agree and hopefully I have the bike still. Right now I think we could agree that I take a break for at LEAST 5-6 months, grow a little more and see where we are, mostly financially and not in the relationship b/c I know we will be together. I have new plans for the 919 and I know you guys (assuming you're still reading thus far) will love it. I think she will understand that if I can't ride it, I need to work on it. That's the other greatest feeling about being a bike owner. Fixing it, working on it, modifying it, making your own. Making it a part of you. My 919 is a part of me already. I love that thing. I love it even more because she got it for me. I think of her every time I get on it and I've told her this.
So thanks for reading if you made it this far and wish me the best on getting her to agree with this. No matter how things go, you guys will still be my go to guys for whatever I've got on my mind.